Today I am feeling anxious, excited, nervous, happy, and a touch of sadness… just to name a few emotions. For some reason today it has hit me that we will meet our little boy in about two months (give or take a few days) and I’ve felt the emotions creeping in. Well, maybe it hit me because I am 32 weeks pregnant now... can you believe I am already 32 weeks?! This is very exciting and honestly, I cannot wait to hold that little peanut in my arms. I know my life will be forever changed once I meet him. I do not even know what to expect. You would think I would since this is my second time around, but honestly I am clueless. I am clueless just as I was before I had Isabelle. I had no idea the kind of love I would feel for her until she was here. There’s no preparing for these emotions and feelings, and now this time I will have a son, a SON! :)
I am anxious to meet my little man and can’t wait to see what it feels like to be a mama to a boy and a girl. I am so looking forward to those last few weeks/days when labor could strike up at any moment. Where, each night I anxiously await the contractions to start. I am so excited for this labor and delivery! I really just feel extremely calm about it all this time around and can't wait.
I do feel some sadness and nerves that Isabelle will no longer be our one and only. She is the center of our lives and the one who made me a mama. She is doted on constantly and gets our complete attention. I love her more than words and hope she adjusts well to life as a big sister (which I know she will). I don’t want her to feel left out or that mama has a new baby to replace her. I want her to always remember and to feel that she is my little girl, my one and only!
I know we will adjust and we will feel complete. We won’t be able to comprehend how we lived without both in our lives, but until the time comes I truly cannot grasp what life will be like. A new born and a toddler – two little ones to love on… oh how I cannot wait!